Slowdrawl
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Something has happened to me, I feel I need to log this story!
Just in case I need a reminder of how all of this started.
I will say I've never had a panic or anxiety attack.
I'm an even keeled person with a level head and a healthy outlook.......
But....I woke up 3 days ago and wanted to call my Mom and Dad to see how things were going.
Got my phone, couldn't remember their #, WTF they've had the same number for 60 yrs.
OK I'll just look it up in my contacts, couldn't remember how to get there.
Seconds of confusion went by, then I suddenly had a very vivid memory of me holding my moms hand in the hospital
as she passed....over 10 yrs ago....massive confusion now!
Then It really hit me I F'n totally lost it, uncontrollable crying,wailing started shaking so violently
I couldn't standup, this went on for at least a few minutes. Afterwards I gathered my wits about me
and tried to make sense of it all......couldn't!
My Dr's office is about a mile away, so I just drove there walked right in and tried to explain the issue.
They know me and could tell something was seriously off, I started crying hard instantly and couldn't
get a word out. Nurse came out took me in the back to check my vitals.....everything's off the charts!
I finally get myself calmed down enough to really know what I was doing, my nurse suggested the hospital.
Another nurse came in and said "we would like to call you an ambulance".
"Absolutely not, I drove here I'll take myself". I just turned around and walked right out.
Could imagine the call to the hospital...hey ya'll got some crazy fucker coming your way!!
Got to the hospital, fastest check in I've ever had...ha ha!
They were ready for me....small town hospital!
Now a battery of tests...CT brain scan, ECG, complete blood work up....yada yada!!
They couldn't find anything out of the norm other than my BP was still slightly elevated.
So the conclusion at this point appears to be early onset dementia!
Ok, that makes some sense to me after having this crazy episode.
Maybe I'm really off making this post here, If so I apologize! Delete if needed.
I'm really not looking for pity my friends.
I'm just thinking if my shit really hits the fan this post will be here as a reminder of this episode!
Hell I spend more time on this site than talking to my family and friends.
Thx to those who read this and have an understanding of where my head is at...at least at the moment.
Slowdrawl...Dave
Just in case I need a reminder of how all of this started.
I will say I've never had a panic or anxiety attack.
I'm an even keeled person with a level head and a healthy outlook.......
But....I woke up 3 days ago and wanted to call my Mom and Dad to see how things were going.
Got my phone, couldn't remember their #, WTF they've had the same number for 60 yrs.
OK I'll just look it up in my contacts, couldn't remember how to get there.
Seconds of confusion went by, then I suddenly had a very vivid memory of me holding my moms hand in the hospital
as she passed....over 10 yrs ago....massive confusion now!
Then It really hit me I F'n totally lost it, uncontrollable crying,wailing started shaking so violently
I couldn't standup, this went on for at least a few minutes. Afterwards I gathered my wits about me
and tried to make sense of it all......couldn't!
My Dr's office is about a mile away, so I just drove there walked right in and tried to explain the issue.
They know me and could tell something was seriously off, I started crying hard instantly and couldn't
get a word out. Nurse came out took me in the back to check my vitals.....everything's off the charts!
I finally get myself calmed down enough to really know what I was doing, my nurse suggested the hospital.
Another nurse came in and said "we would like to call you an ambulance".
"Absolutely not, I drove here I'll take myself". I just turned around and walked right out.
Could imagine the call to the hospital...hey ya'll got some crazy fucker coming your way!!
Got to the hospital, fastest check in I've ever had...ha ha!
They were ready for me....small town hospital!
Now a battery of tests...CT brain scan, ECG, complete blood work up....yada yada!!
They couldn't find anything out of the norm other than my BP was still slightly elevated.
So the conclusion at this point appears to be early onset dementia!
Ok, that makes some sense to me after having this crazy episode.
Maybe I'm really off making this post here, If so I apologize! Delete if needed.
I'm really not looking for pity my friends.
I'm just thinking if my shit really hits the fan this post will be here as a reminder of this episode!
Hell I spend more time on this site than talking to my family and friends.
Thx to those who read this and have an understanding of where my head is at...at least at the moment.
Slowdrawl...Dave